Finding Balance | Thursday Thoughts

Today, I’m taking the day off for some me time. Well, other than my scheduled shoot tonight.  I know I’ve been tossing around the idea of having more discipline with a more regular work schedule.  Balancing work and personal life has always been a huge challenge that I have yet to conquer.  Running a business and being your own boss sometimes means there is no concrete beginning and no concrete end of a day.  There are a lot of times I take work to bed with me. Literally, I’ll be in bed with my laptop, and soon this will lead to an affair with my laptop.

It’s a harsh truth I’m realizing after last night having fainted in the bathroom at a braves game. Good thing it was the 755 club bathroom, or I don’t think I would have ever recovered from having my face smashed against those other awful bathroom floors. Of course, minutes later I picked myself back up and felt perfectly fine and was confused to why a group of women were huddled around me with way too many questions about whether I had too much to drink or if I was pregnant. They proceeded to wipe away my cold sweat and didn’t leave until the EMT arrived.  Real motherly women.  It was altogether strange and embarrassing having that much attention on me. I’m not sure what’s the cause of it, but I’m convinced that either way I need to live a more balanced life and have a healthier lifestyle.

Coincidentally, I’m in book three of Eat Pray Love, where Liz Gilbert is looking for balance in Bali, and I was going to blog about how interesting I found her journey to be.  I’m looking for a different kind of balance, but balance all the same.  I’m almost finished so that I can watch the movie!

So yeah, today I am giving my mind and body some rest.  Starting with prayer and meditation and a balanced breakfast.  Maybe I’ll catch up on reading some books. Watch a little tv.   And perhaps take a walk around the neighborhood if it’s not too hot.  Maybe, the hubby and I will even go on a date after the shoot.

Nicole of Peachtree Weddings | Atlanta Wedding Photographer

Meet Nicole.  Last week, I met up with Nicole to catch up on life after the wedding and to take a few headshots.  She was a lifesaver on my wedding day and the best decision I made during all of my planning process.  Even though I made it a point to hire all the top industry professionals as vendors at the wedding in order to minimize mistakes, I knew that it’s just inevitable that certain things will go wrong.

Lucky for me, I met Nicole of Peachtree Weddings and Events while photographing Melinda and Ben’s wedding, which was a few months before my very own wedding.  I had never seen a wedding run so smoothly before, I’ll even throw in, in my life.  It’s not that nothing went wrong, it’s just how quickly she took care of everything, that it came unnoticed.  I was very impressed.  All up until that point, we had decided that we would take care of the wedding on our own.  I mean, c’mon, we’re wedding photographers.  We’ve worked in the industry long enough to know the ins and outs of a wedding.  A lot of the times we emd up “coordinating” the day anyways.  We can handle it, right?  The other option was having an organized friend with some wedding experience coordinate, but even then, I’d probably still be back seat driving the thing.  I had witnessed one too many mistakes and one two many stressed-out brides at weddings, and it left me with an unsettling feeling that I just might go bridezilla on someone.  This would not be ideal, especially for someone who considers themselves far, far from bridezilla, but I could already start seeing the inner monster creeping out.  It’s interesting what stress can do to a person.

Anyhow, after several conversations about wedding budget, finally I convinced Jacob to have Nicole coordinate the wedding, and I am so very happy I did.  I am really thankful that I was able to have the wedding of my dreams and to actually enjoy it.  I didn’t have to keep up with a million tasks, pick up any phone calls, nada.  I got to enjoy the day.  So thank you, Nicole!  We’re very grateful to have met you.  Happy Wednesday!

Meet the Kangs | DC Family Photographer

Angela + Lee + Zane + Christiana = The Kangs.  The Kangs had just moved to DC two weeks before from California and wanted to have something more iconic to DC in the family shoot, so we chose Lafayette park.

It’s always a lot of fun to see the dynamics between siblings.  Christiana is a ball of energy and very free-spirited.  She’s considered the wild one out of the two.  One minute we were shooting, and the next she was chasing after squirrels.  And then we were suddenly chasing after her… AND the squirrels.  Zane, on the other hand, is much more laid back, but also very sweet and playful.

Zane and Christiana wanted the chance to get behind the camera.  I caught a few while Christiana was in action.

At the end, we did a few shots of just Angela and Lee since they rarely get a chance to have photos of just them two.

Hayley and Ross | Savu Savu, Fiji

Thursday Thoughts:

Back to real life.  It wasn’t all a dream.  It appears that I am indeed married.  Everything happened so fast that it seems unreal.  Any moment now I’ll wake up from the dream and be back to what I had been used to for 27 plus some years of my life – single, carefree, perhaps even careless.  Then again, every day has passed since, and I’m still married.  Weird!  Maybe that movie inception still has me messed up.   For sure that movie has messed me up.

I don’t feel like a different person, but I feel a tremendous internal pressure that I’m somehow supposed to be.  Somehow I’m supposed to be this amazing wife who is all of a sudden tidy and organized, cooks feasts for her husband, is hospitable to all the guests she has over, and the list can go on for miles.  I even cooked my first recipe from my first recipe book my girlfriends gave me as a wedding gift.  Mom’s cucumber recipe.  And I even cleaned the bathroom in such an OCD manner.  These things are all very uncharacteristic of me, and I don’t feel like myself.

I can’t quite figure out what’s bugging me.  I’ve been up late at night with a million questions running through my head all pointing back to that big “who am I?”  Maybe I’m afraid of failing as a good wife and who knows why I’m worrying about this even before this new chapter has really started.  Worrying is also very uncharacteristic of me, because I tend to pretend the stress just isn’t there.  Man, this is going to be one scary, new chapter of my life.  Correction: Our lives.

Well, enough about my thursday thoughts.  Thought I’d deliver them with some beautiful photos from Fiji.  Oh, how I miss Fiji.  Now that was really a dream.

Here’s Hayley and Ross:

Ronke and Yinka | Savu Savu, Fiji

As amazing as it can be to capture in-love moments during engagement sessions and the unforgettable moments during a wedding, we had the opportunity to capture the blissful moments of two couples who were finally done with all the planning, away in an exotic place, and simply there to enjoy each other’s company as newlyweds.  It was a lot of fun getting to shoot these wonderful, not to mention GORGEOUS, couples in this beautiful, tropical paradise.  Like eye-candy for a photographer.  Meet Ronke and Yinka.

Will be posting Hayley and Ross tomorrow.  If you would like to do a session during your honeymoon, contact Jacob for special rates and details at jacob@estherjulee.com.